This week...

i've been a bit slack with the whole blogging thing for a few weeks. i guess because even though i know that this is supposed to help organise and express my thoughts, i also think sometimes that when you write and express negativity, it often compounds itself. i'm a believer in the 'power of positive thought', and although i have periods in my life where i lose my 'faith' or, it wains a bit, a believer i remain.

The week before last, i was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, a chronic pain condition that i've having the symptoms of for a few years and have been fighting for a diagnosis so i could get back to managing my life. The rheumatologist is putting it down to some past trauma, such as the car accident i had in 1997, or domestic violence in 2002, or even child-birth. No-one really knows what causes it, and as Master has pointed out, i don't fit the typical stereotype of this condition, but it seems i have it all the same. So now, it's simply a question of managing the pain in the long term, and getting back to some form of exercise regime, which will help with the fatigue and the lack of memory.

Master and i also had one of those very rare moments this week where we both had enough privacy to be alone, and be together, albeit on the phone. It's funny, because although i am utterly comfortable with Him, He can still make me nervous. "Phone sex" for want of a better phrase, also makes me a bit nervous, especially as it can be so long between these encounters, and i want to just be able to completely let go and submit to Him, knowing that doing so will please Him immensely. At least i don't get that sense of dread that i did the first time. Haha. Thinking about that actually makes me laugh now. It was so good to be with Him though, His voice and accent can drive me insane. Hopefully next week there will be more time. i can't wait...